Sunday, December 11, 2005

Can't Slow Down, Can't Let Go, Can't Hold On

Our Christmas tree is very pretty. It's very shiny. It was a big, big, project this weekend.

I have another 2-hour infusion of the bone-strengthening drug tomorrow.

It's hard for me to complain. I'm not in any intense pain. I have aches here and there... nothing too bad. The thing is, though, I'm so tired. It's hard to describe, and it's hard to be happy. I'm so afraid that it's not going to get any better, and then I think... BETTER? Give me a break. You should count your blessings now because it's going to be so much worse.

I want to jump back to some healthier time, but I can't go back and I can't stand still.

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